Girl power…

I sometimes wonder what the Universe is up to with me.

I am not really surprised by the random stuff thrown at me on a day to day basis.

But I wonder fairly often if I make the right choices in said situations.

What if??? Is a question that pops into my head a lot.

My motto for years has been…

My path may be chosen, but I am still the one driving.

There is always choice.

Sometimes it’s not the best choice, or the one other people want me to make, but that has never mattered much to me.
Don’t judge me. It’s not your place, nor is it mine to judge you.

The last four years, I have been given obstacle after obstacle, a lot of those were brought on by previous choices I have made.

Some of them bad, but my choices none the less.

I have persevered, I have fought, I have laughed, I have cried MANY tears.

I feel like I am more myself now than I have ever been.

I have grown, I have learned to say what I feel, and never let anyone else define who I am today.

I am the only one with that control.

If I feel like someone is trying to take that away from me…

I rebel.

Fiercely.

Sometimes, possibly…I overreact.

Owned. It can happen.

I have never claimed to be perfect, or tried to live up to a distorted and unrealistic perception of today’s society to live a perfect life.

My life HAS been perfect in every way. For ME. Mistakes and all.

I learn, I move on.

This life lesson, is a big one. Obviously I haven’t learned whatever my lesson is yet. That not only terrifies me at this point, it also in a bizarre way, feels like a big adventure.

Like going through rapids…and right in the middle, when there is nothing you can do about it, you realize that maybe you are in over your head a little, maybe you should have tried the lake in the kayak before you got in the river.

But. you. are. screwed. dude.

Cause you are in the thick of it. Ready or not, and all you can do is paddle like fuck, and hope you come out of it upright, with a little bit of dignity and the pride in knowing you made it through one more test, one more lesson…a little bruised up, but ready for the next adventure.

I sometimes forget to live in the moment, to enjoy the ride, bumpy or not. Everything I am going through everyday is my life, MY adventure, that I have to embrace, live and appreciate.

Are you living your adventure? Embracing it? Being grateful for the fact that good or bad, you are being given an amazing gift just being alive?

I think today, we should all have a grateful day. Really LIVE IN THE MOMENT. All day.

Think about how lucky we are, to be able to change someone’s day with a smile, change someone’s life with a helping hand, or a gesture of kindness, when it is least expected, or not expected at all.

Pay It Forward today…

Just one thing.

Big or small.

Random or planned, it’s up to you.

Don’t tell anyone what you have done. It is an amazing feeling to do good and expect NOTHING in return.

It will BRING good to you to be good.

That is the kind of day that I want to have today. I want to make my big adventure awesome :)

If it is a choice between sink or swim, I am gonna paddle my ass off baby, and I will be smiling all the way.

Bring it…

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21 thoughts on “Girl power…

  1. I am so glad that you listed this post in your one year anniversary post today. I had not read it yet, thank you! It sounds so familiar, like you were in my head. I am just putting my life together. It took me two years to be ok with the decision to leave a relationship that I knew was not good for me. I am so glad that I did, even though financially it has been stressful, it is good. I am glad that I changed my mind, changed directions. You have a great way of putting life’s struggles into words.
    Bring it on!

  2. I swear … if you only knew how timely reading this post was for me ~ it’s like you’re in my head! Especially that quote … I’ve come across it before, then forgotten who said it, and have tried to find it many times but without any luck. So thanks for the quote and the inspirational post!

    I’m feeling a major crossroads coming up in my life and I’m feeling anxious and confused about it. (What if I make the wrong decision!!!!!) And I know that in the past I have let some major opportunities pass me by because I was too afraid to take the chance. I wish I was braver, more courageous … more gutsy!

  3. Trying to control my life too much has never really made me all that happy.

    Then again, neither has doing nothing….

    This was a good post but it left me asking myself a lot of weird questions and getting even weirder answers.

  4. I love this quote. I had my life planned, then it all fell to pieces. And I know now that one can’t really plan too much. If somebody is asking me if I”m staying here for long my answer is – I don’t know. Because I know that I don’t know what is going to happen and where I will be in a year or two… but strangely I’m much more in control of my own life now to what I was before…. Swim, not sink!

  5. So much of that just sounded like my own life, though I unfortunately haven’t moved past another dictating my life and choices yet. ‘I’m working on it!’ A part of me has learned to accept that I am where I am for no other reason than I made poor choices that put me in this position, but still there’s another part of me that says that’s okay that I chose the gravel road to run on, have fallen and skinned my knees many times, because in doing so I’ve learned what works and doesn’t, and it’s made me tough as nails. I’m finally starting to ‘get’ that it’s never too late, I’m never too old, to reinvent myself. I’m working hard on trying to dispel the negativity when my mind tells me I’m just too old to fulfill childhood dreams, and it makes it easier to do so when I see others still climbing the rungs of the ladder too. Thanks for reminding me again that it’s okay for me to think, feel, and act on what I choose, simply because it’s my life and my choice to do so. I want to be like you when I grow up, Donna! :)

    • :) I wish we lived closer, we could have all kinds of fun…as for being like me when you grow up, thank you. Seriously, that made my month, but don’t grow up girl, what the hell is the fun in that??? xoxo

  6. Love that last line. Bring it. Damn tootin! Bring it on and give me your best shot and I’ll waiting! I like to think there’s no such thing as a bad or wrong decision because at the time you believe you are making the right choice. Hindsight makes us think we took the wrong option, but that’s not very important or healthy way of looking at things. So we do make the right choices based on how we feel at the time. If it turns out to be wrong, well, smile and move on, there’s always a next time, always another choice to make and dwelling on past decisions just gets you down.

    So, as you say, bring it!

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