Ever have one of those days when you just want to change everything you do?
I am having that day today. I am not sure what that is all about. I am bored I guess.
I want to do something totally out of my zone…
I want to not cook supper.
I want to not do my laundry.
I want to drive my car. But I can’t. Because it is at my Dad’s house, 5 hours away. I am thinking next weekend, I am going to get her and bring her home.
I want to not put my makeup on and do my hair. But I will, the world just doesn’t deserve that, at all.
I want to be unbearably wealthy.
I want to be in Portugal.
I want to find an unbelievably cool gift for Dylan and his 20th birthday…
I want to be totally irresponsible, spend the Orthodontist money on something ridiculous that I would never buy cause I don’t have an extra $700, like a kick ass really cool tattoo.
But I won’t. I am weird that way.
Colton said that if I offered him up to work instead of paying, they would be sadly disappointed. I said that WE both knew that, but they didn’t.
I want my Mom’s pain to go away…and for her to feel totally healthy all the time.
I want my kids to be unbelievably healthy and happy.
I want my cat to be human.
I want to live in Vancouver now. I am done with the waiting…long distance is not working for me.
I want the new owners of my house, to drive by, and feel it…really feel it, like I did before I even came into the house. I would like that to happen today please.
I want to be a gypsy…like a real one.
I want my Dad to know, I really do try my hardest…
I want to have enough energy to go to kickboxing today…but I just don’t. Work is killing me. A walk would be nice though.
I want to get in my car and just drive…wherever…somewhere I have never been. Or to Victoria, to see Cathy.
But OH…I have no car, it’s at my dad’s house.
I want to wear my cowboy hat, dance in the mud and drink way too much tequila, and NOT have a hangover the next day.
I want to kiss Keith Urban…just once. Really I would be fine with once. Probably not a good idea after the tequila though, for his sake. Just saying.
I want to take my Mom and just the two of us go somewhere totally crazy, that we never would have thought of before.
I want world peace.
I want the earth to stop shaking in the bad way.
I want people to learn how to drive…people all over the place…just pay attention, please?
I want to eat chocolate for one day, all day, for every meal, and not gain 10 pounds or get 6 zits on my face…
I want to hug my Grandma just one more time…
Some of these things WILL happen…some will not.
Of some stuff, I have control…of some, I do not.
I am the only one with the power to get it started…
this I know, and embrace…
let the new beginning start…